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June 18, 2019June 20, 2019

Evoke Emotion

I remember when I was little and anticipation for my birthday or Christmas struck. I could feel it so vividly, it would overcome me with electric vibration. I wouldn’t be able to sleep the night before because I knew just what the next day would bring, only great things. I felt this last night. I couldn’t understand why and then I woke with the same excitement and anticipation. I realised, it was my son’s birthday and this was his energy. The more I meditate and connect to who I am the more I learn about how deeply I am really connected to those around me, I can feel their energy. It brought a humbling reminder to me that we get so lost in our own adult lives that any sort of joy or excitement gets swallowed whole by work, family, friends. It’s like we can’t even enjoy those things anymore, they’re either routine or a struggle to really relax into.

It’s harder when you have children because you are unable to live your life as you once pleased. You must readjust and most of the time my life is now spent revolving around others, their needs and time frames and not my own. I don’t get to make time for me to indulge a catch up with a friend, no plans are set to look forward to, no break awaits and no sicks days exist. I am completely absorbed in my daily struggle to survive. This experience has taught me an important reminder as not only how important it is to not forget to take an intentional time to enjoy life but why it is important. We forget who we are and why we exist. We don’t enjoy any part of it and what existence would be worthwhile if all we do is sacrifice and suffer. Now a lot of other people are able to receive the helping hand they need and take some much need me-time and couple-time but we don’t and thankfully we try to work in our early morning quiet times and evening rest times once the children are asleep.

It was sad to think that all this time I had forgotten the excitement that should be felt in our lives, that we are worth celebrating and life is worth celebrating and we should feel that so deeply, but we don’t. We are swallowed by work deadlines, stresses and trying relationships. The trifecta that destroys us because while we are trying to feel something we’re filling the hollow in ourselves with things that invoke no sense of activation to us. We’re still remaining empty and lifeless. I really hope you get a chance to remember and hold on to that joy and excitement you once had, that you never let it go. We should always feel like so vividly and project our emotions so clearly that we can use it as a guide. Our emotions are our instincts when we are happy we are in a positive place if we’re sad we’re in a negative one, but we seem to ignore it and keep going when we should just let it be.

I really hope this encourages you to take some time and remember how it feels to experience life through the eyes of your inner child and maybe your life will begin to blossom once again. I am really thankful for my beautiful children and the inner child reminding me to stop and feel, to really begin to understand others and myself through emotions. Emotions are a powerful guide that we can trust if we really listen to what they are telling us.

June 15, 2019June 18, 2019

Hit REFRESH

I hope you all take some time to hit the refresh button this lovely Sunday and just relax. I find it very hard to do this as there is always something to do, but I’ve had to start making the time.

How many times do we push ourselves to the brink of exhaustion, everything we do is under pressure and we rush and hurry. As a mother this is bound to happen, trying to get a toddler and baby ready then somehow myself. Everyone depends on me to do things for them and others call on me because I’m dependable and always happy to help but in amongst this I forget me. I forget how important I am and I forget how to relax and unwind, mostly because I feel like I can’t or shouldn’t or don’t have the option to. Sound familiar?

This is where I had to acknowledge my pattern of behaviour and how negatively it was affecting me. I had to learn to let go of the rush and time press and just let things sit for a minute because making time to do things is as almost as important as being able to relax and re-centre yourself. Leave all the weight at the door and enter your own sanctuary where you can find peace to carry throughout your day. I try to be very intentional with my mornings and start my day off with #futureselfjournaling and just let the dishes be, they’re always going to exist.

What seems to be lacking is my ability to unwind for a minute and finding my focus for the day. Without, I realised how unsettled I am.

I encourage you, just take a minute with a cup of something and sit outside, turn your room into a cove of peace or even in the shower and most importantly leave the phone behind. Just breathe, focus on something your day seems to revolve around and begin to speak life into it, see it in your mind how well will go and how successful it will be. If things go another way not planned to your expectations, learn to be thankful for it and learn to accept the things we have no control over, learn to see it as a necessary outcome as much as things must happen so they mustn’t. We seem to be angered at the thought that something we have revolved out thought and emotion around and invested doesn’t come to fruition, we built ourselves up for frustration instead of seeing with new eyes and allowing things to take us down a different path and to see it is good too.

Ready yourself for a day with a focus and hopefully, you’ll be able to feel the calm wash over you. You’ll find your centre and be ready to approach this day with new thoughts and fresh emotions. As a parent, I try to do this when both my children are happy and occupied or asleep. It doesn’t take long and just sets us all up for a great if not, wonderful day.

As a parent this is apart of my change into conscious parenting. It will make a difference as a worker, as a parent, child, every individual. This is NOT just sitting and doing nothing, you are purposefully breaking a habit and creating a new one where you a letting go of the negative thoughts and feelings and deciding to take on new positive ones instead. You are aligning yourself to a new way of living and being. You are choosing to be better, calming, more conscious of yourself and of others.

I hope you enjoy your day and try a new mindset, wear calm and feel the strength from your new set day.

June 4, 2019

Choose your words Wisely

Everyday I wake up trying to think of words (that make sense 😂) and try to create quotes that encourage or reach people where they’re at. I’ve been through a bit an lot people don’t know about and so I hope by turnings those moments into something positive for others I can also heal.

I realised this was becoming a daily practice and challenge for me (in a good way) and that my first thought every day was about what way I was going to try and help others in the only way I thought I knew how, by writing. I tend to talk less because I’m more afraid of my words being worthless and I think that’s a really good thing.

If there’s one thing you get from this, choose your words consciously and wisely, speak to give life, not to just talk back. Words really do matter.

June 3, 2019June 3, 2019

The Villain in Me

As I get older I find I get so tired, you could say even exhausted just so easily. Like how I’m so tired of people who refuse to change, admit their faults to how badly they treat others, how rude and arrogant they can be, their selfish, self centred, self gain agenda. It’s just so tiring. Imagine being the only one who constantly makes the effort, who goes above and beyond any request or expectation because you truly care and you back your word with action, but they just don’t care. They are all talk and no action. They act to impress others and that’s really about it.

They are like a weight around you that won’t let go, it keeps pulling you further down into the depths of an unwavering sea of depression. You keep trying to pull the other way, trying to help them by pulling them to the surface but they won’t budge, they won’t let you breathe They’ll happily watch and stand by as you gasp for air. What do you do in this circumstance? How does one person change the world? It would seem they have to change themselves. I have learnt to let go. Let go of trying so hard to do the right thing by these people who couldn’t care less. I’ve stopped caring about their thoughts and opinions, especially their great ability to spread rumours and love for gossip. The main talking piece – Me. I’ve realised that it doesn’t matter what you do. You can try and do the right thing for them constantly and you’re not enough or you can walk away and they will talk badly about you and portray you as the villain. I’d rather be painted as a monster than be under the threat of one.

I’ve begun to understand why evil exists, why there will always be a “bad guy” in every story. Their frustrations and anger turns sour and after every attempt to be right and do right, they get tired, like me. Tired of being treated like garbage, tired of being walked over and stepped on, we are tired of the emotional booty call and temporary void filler we have become for you because we want people to know we understand what it’s like to have no one and nothing but they do not care. They take and steal and push and shove, they lie and create this environment where no one thrives but them. They use every weapon and word against you and play your good intentions against your emotions. You become their toy they do not treat with love and care. Instead you are now more raggedy than Ann. You are the broken puppet, the unvalued item to their puppet master persona. Holding yourself together by a thread.

Nothing is ever going to change in their heroic self claimed status of what they do and don’t deserve and how they dictate what you can and cannot have. You’re broken down, you’re useless of not your own accord, your done. So when they begin to let you go and eventually throw you away don’t return to them with good intentions, return the risen villain they paint you to be. Strong, self reliant and most importantly, the loveable hero in your own story. Turn the tables and raise your voice. Let it be heard and not silenced. Let no one again use you and exhaust you. Do not waste your time on those who do not care for you or love you. Do not wait for them to admit their true intentions, their true feelings.

You are better, you are badass, you are real.