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My understanding of the purpose of Crystals

So I have been transitioning myself a lot lately into who I am and exploring the avenues available to me. I’ve met a lot of interesting people and joined a lot of groups (thanks Facebook and Instagram) and have found myself growing every day in new ways. Which all in all is such a breath of fresh air and a blessing.


One of the ways I look to grow myself is to understand different paths available to us that we can use tools and knowing everything around has life, vibration and is in coexistence with us. The interest in things like crystals and gemstones has come on in the last week or so and just wanting to understand why I am so drawn to rose quartz of all things! I hate being cliche and feel like rose quartz is the stone every has and loves but getting over myself and may need to be unique, it’s exactly what I need. I am truly rose quartz, I lead with my heart and hope all else follows.


To love is my highest calling and desire, I ensure it is constant action and that I allow it to be a timeless reminder. I don’t love broken relationships as I feel them break me, I never allow poor excuses to stand in my way and through hell and high water you will know I love you. I learnt to understand this was not a curse but a blessing and as an Empath with a desire to love, I could accept it’s intensity and learn to respect those who were worthy of it would show it and not use my endless resource as a toy. I learnt self-respect and learnt to love myself.


Rose quartz represents all things to do with your heart, like self-affirmation, self-esteem, balance emotion and confidence. Which all sounds pretty good, but the deeper I go and the more I tune it I realise that we use crystals and are connected to them because they are a reflection of who we are inside and I believe rose quartz calls to me because it is the reminder I need to refuel, refresh, cleanse and release the love needed around me. It is the reflection of who I am. We choose the stone that stands out the most, that we are drawn to and it is the constant reminder of our strength to love, to forgive, to heal. Beautiful right? I’m honestly in awe of this revelation and greater appreciation and understanding of our creator creating these beautiful reminds for us to vibrate higher.


We should embrace ourselves as we do others and encourage ourselves as we encourage others but most importantly when we feel lost, remind ourselves it’s our time to shine. We can learn a lot of crystals especially as an Empath, just as they need cleansing and recharging, so do we! Whether that’s through the water to cleanse, earth to be grounded, the moon to be recharged or the sun to help us shine brighter, we can and should take these reminds as gospel. We can and will activate those around us and our energy will transform them for the better.


Let’s wash off the history of yesterday and glow in today’s glory.

Love to you all and I hope you find your crystal/s to remind you daily of who you are and show you your reflection, may they help you through your day.

Note: I can understand there are people may think they’re just empty objects, pretty to look at, used as a sham in a spiritual movement or even something used in sinister practices, but they’re not. They were created just as we are with life and energy. Finding deeper meaning in a precious stone doesn’t make you unreasonable, unrealistic or wicked, it shows your awareness into the life ALL around you.

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Learning to accept the Flow of Life

For a while now I’ve noticed a tight heart feeling inside me. This started after my first child was born. I’ve only realised now how I’ve felt for a long time, that I had to be in control of every situation because I simply couldn’t depend on any else to come and help me when I so desperately needed it. This was even before having children. I had been pushed into an overactive state and never really got to release myself out of it. When it seems like everyone else in your life has expectations and negative responses for you, you begin to work overtime.

Mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually I can feel how much damage it has done so far and how I can’t relax properly. I never unwind. Today is one of those days where I finally noticed how much I’ve learnt from my own short journey with meditation and reflection. I was meant to be moving the mass of boxes into our new home, I was going to be pre-emptive with how much I could achieve before actual deadlines would appear but I began to let go and realise how overactive I am functioning in this thought pattern. How again, I had a plan to help myself but today was having none of it.

I’m going to move a small load on my own, I’m okay with this because despite how much I would try my best in this situation if roles were reversed I have to stop projecting what I’ve been forced to do onto others and that we tend to do this a lot. We put unnecessary pressure and expectations onto a certain situation or person because it’s become a very unhealthy learned habit and we break them down instead of allowing them some grace. This isn’t because of personality it’s because of conditioning over the years that others played the guilt card and when you’re an Empath it’s easy to begin to get played on the basis of emotion. “You must because” or your ability to choose gets taken away. A lot of people like to respond and say “well, you can say no”! Actually, no you can’t we say no and it goes pear shaped very quickly usually with their response that is narcissistic, abusive or controlling. We back down and begin to stop fighting back it’s easier to just stay silent, to be a slave and just keep trying to do the right thing under a fear fuelled pressure.

We need to begin to break the cycle of how we manage our expectations and not allow ourselves to automatically revert to a constant pushing for results. Sometimes we need to go with the flow. This is who I was before and under the actions of those who switched me from free-flowing to overactive, I try to not do this to others and you should too. Be aware of how you respond and understand if you are blocked or overactive in your approach. Are you calm or frustrated, collected or about to lose the plot? Well, take a minute and step back from it and ask yourself “How am I responding?” tell yourself honestly the “why” and begin to deal with it. Life doesn’t happen on our watch, it happens as it does, it’s how we respond to it that really counts.

I hope you all enjoy your happy Saturday xx

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I Am Your Source.

Before you read on I want to add this in, I personally believe the one divine creator is God. Now you may believe something different but I do believe we can agree that there is one ultimate being who is good and kind. It is my personal experience, I’ve seen what I’ve seen and can’t change that and I know what truth has been revealed to me. I also know this is something we can’t take that away from each other. I know the whole spiritual realm seems to be either far fetched, evil mystical or only good based on a certain faith, but no one chooses this and I know now, we are gifted with it. I also believe it connects us. This is so much more than what spiritualism etc has been portrayed or used for, this is the bigger, real, every day picture.

So, if you want to be encouraged read on —

It’s been an interesting morning spiritually and I wanted to share with all what has been taking place over the last 24 hours. It’s amazing how we are entering into existence when we finally learn to be connected to our higher self. This lesson starts from yesterday afternoon, I was on my way to do the kindy pick up and I began to have a somewhat comedic but cute thought about myself as a bumble bee and I was dancing upon a sunflower. Strange, odd and completely relevant. I had received a reading from another person later that day and I have been given the Cosmic Flower. I didn’t make any correlation at the time but I had received the answer I was looking for unwittingly before the actual reading was revealed. It’s a process to learn to dig deep into my visions and learn from them, understand, process them and acknowledge their validity.

In short, this Cosmic Flower I had received activates our remembrance of the place we call home – the core from which we pour our magnificence out into the world. It didn’t mean too much to me then as I hadn’t put the vision to the reading together. It was encouraging and interesting at the least at that moment. Well, fast forward to today, I came home from kindy drop off, finished a phone call and was weighed down by anxiety. My heart could not stop hurting. So I decided it was time to meditate and dig deeper into what was going on and find the answers I needed. Needless to say, it took me a long time to really relax and focus on my morning meditation, so after really trying to hone into what was happening inside me I decided it was time to write it out if thinking deeply wasn’t going to get this healing process started.

Suddenly it was like the vision and the reading clicked together in my mind and it made so much sense. I realised I was the bee but this time it was God who I had to seek as he was always my Cosmic Flower. I began to see spiritually, that I was sitting and around me was like a tornado wall of fire and it would just circle around me, I began to see the colour orange as well. Orange represents fire and expanding energy. It was like all these pieces were forming together, that I finally was clear on what was going on inside me. Then I heard a voice, it said: I am Your Source. It has been repeating itself over and over and I can’t believe how deeply this resonates with me.

Know you have the background let me put this all together. I am the cause of my own pain and anxiety, I chose my own “power” over Gods ability. He is our source which means when I need to do something, He is the one powering me with all ability. This has given me so much as peace as I’ve come to learn of who I am and as I embrace my gift. I resisted my true self for song long in fear of what I would become but again God has reminded me I would never turn to evil or be as people would call me, I am given a gift from him to help others and He alone is the source to my power, He provides all I need as I need it.

WOW.

I am humbled by this increase in generosity and freedom I know accept into my life. I reminded gently a God transforms me into something new, something I’ve always been and someone who is not evil but good. He knows what he is doing and that no one can tell me who I am or what I am or what I do is right or wrong because God has told me that it is from Him. So today, if you struggle as I do to embrace your true nature, do it because God wants you to know you are his, He is your source and He only gives good gifts. If He has given us these good gifts no one can take them away unless we decide to hide them. Then we will be at war with ourselves internally causing things like anxiety, stress, heartbreak. Remember the ultimate divine being is our source, what more could we want or ask for! He will teach us and guide us and all we need is in Him. No games or tricks are required to hone into who you are and use your gift because you are already connected and well equipped. All we need to do is acknowledge Gods our Cosmic Flower and we will be so grounded and centred. HE WILL PROVIDE ALL THINGS. Not some, select or maybe, but ALL THINGS. He knows our needs. He is our grand creator after all.

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Todays Meditation

I had a lot on my heart and mind today (as usual) so I took time this morning to be very intentional on answers, healing and shed light by digging deeper into the why of it.

I have begun to feel like I am always being left empty handed in relationships, it’s a one way street and they are like a blackhole of emotion and resources. I keep pouring in and it all keeps disappearing and there is never any return. I really had to dig deeper to understand that I was not only giving to a endless void but also that wasn’t the part that hurt, it was the fact the I would give unconditionally and never once did I receive that in return.

As I closed my eyes and breathed deeply, I saw three things I want to share with you and I hope this helps others who may be struggling with this too. The first was a large great white shark, it was just in front of me, we were face to face. Sharks represent two things, your desire for productivity, the ability to keep moving and stay focused, but it also represents how we can be in relationship with someone or be the person who is greedy and scrupulous. For me this just made sense. I had faced many sharks in my life so far but this one was different because I heard a voice say become the shark. For the first time I felt I could take the power back after identifying the root issue in my relationships and how I thrive with productivity and a constant movement forward in my life. I thrive for progress.

The second image was an Anaconda, it was wrapped around a large tree trunk and was calm. Snakes in general represent a transformation, a shedding of skin. You are the centre of the changes but there is nothing to fear. The Anaconda specifically comes as a reminder that we cannot control everything, to let go of the outcome and allow things to unfold. For me this is was always are hard thing to do, but this has been a recurring message over the last few days. It’s time for me to stop being so overactive in my energy and allow change to occur and most importantly, not fear it.

The third was the colours I saw during this time was the correlation to how these issues were affecting me emotionally and physically. They were white and violet which are related to source energy flowing to intuition and purple which relates to our third eye which helps us see all perspectives and helps with intuition work. As someone whose strength is in intuition and knowing, this was a great sign as seeing colour during meditation is a sign of it healing and unblocking.

For many this means nothing, for me this means everything. I have a message, to understand the sharks in my life, to breakdown the root of an issue and know I can now transform the issue into a solution, I can embody the shark by keeping my progress continual. I know when I focus on an issue I begin to clear out any blockages by meditation and digging deeper. These three proactive ways increase our ability to change. We can change our circumstances, ourselves and heal all in one when we just take the time to sit, be still and allow ourselves to work through it and see it clearly.

Sometimes we avoid this so we don’t have to acknowledge or accept the pain we have or have inflicted in ourselves as well as needing to change. I think more than anything the fear of it holds us back and doing so holds us back in every way mentally , emotionally, physically and spiritually. So I encourage you, even if you don’t have any issues surrounding your thoughts and emotions at this time, still take the time out to just breathe, relax and unwind. You don’t need to receive anything, you can just let go and allow your body to recharge itself, which is more important than your phone!

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Mindfulness from Today

Every day I begin to think what am I going to meditate on today? Today was about my own children and what future and life I want them to have and how these hopes came from a place of love and not control. As a parent, you can feel many things but from our own experiences mine was fear. Fear of hurting them more than being able to love them and let them grow and flourish. That I would be responsible for the pain I carry and placing that into them. I don’t ever want my children to go through what I went through but how do we escape the ever seeming vicious cycle?

Take responsibility for your own actions. When you live your most authentic life and experience the truest you, you don’t need to hash together a makeshift life. It will come together. Your positive vibrations begin to beat stronger and stronger and like two magnets, your strength, courage and self-love pull you to where you need to be. Don’t be afraid of yourself, let your authentic self raise its flag and fly it high and with that same confidence bring to life all that you are. So, that when you have the ability to pour into someone else and respond to them in mindfulness and love, you will be able to.

This is a journey of undoing a lot of pain but also this journey began because I knew I never wanted anyone else to feel this or live this as a daily and constant reminder of how bad things have been. Detox of the old life, shed their weight off you. Take the first steps to independence so you to, do not hurt others the way you have been hurt. You get to heal and survive and teach others how to be better and do better. You get to be free for the first time in your life and you get to watch others grow from the love you nurture them with and survive with the strength you instilled in them.

I hope you take a calming sense of peace with you today and know you are putting out power and love instead of hate and pain. The children are our future.

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I am the Wave

Today I was intentional with what I needed to meditate on, what was the one thing I was going to encourage myself with. As I closed my eyes, a clear voice in me said: “Become the wave.” There formed a picture in my mind of me standing in front of a giant wave. The wave had always represented something I was trying to resist, something I was fearful of because of how great it was and soon the picture changed from me face the wave to me turning my back to it and becoming embraced by it. It was a powerful image. I was no longer in fear of something so powerful but I was embracing myself, I was learning to stop trying to fight myself and resist my own greatness but instead, let it wash over me and embrace it.

Sometimes in quiet and stillness the truth is revealed and other times it’s just waiting for us to be open enough to listen and let it speak. I have resisted myself for a long time, another bad habit formed over years and years of being forcefully crushed in submission and broken into their order and that I might fit into someone else’s will. Yet here I am, as empowered as ever again by me. That the inner me knew it needed to never give up on the outer me. That two halves become a whole once again. Many times I got told to be quiet, many times I was scolded for telling the truth, many times the truth was pushed to be forgotten and every time I was made to feel wrong in every sense. That everything I was, was broken down, crushed and laid to waste by those who didn’t approve of my ability to keep being my authentic self. It didn’t sit well with them that I could face adversity as I did and still keep going, especially when they were the ones to cause me the greatest harm.

So you see, if you have those around you and it’s a constant fear to face giants, take a moment to seek the truth and it shall find you. It will tell you that, you, are in fact the giant, the victor, the glory holder and you are to not be intimidated or made fearful of anyone or anything.

Instead of feeling like you’re facing a giant, embrace the fact you are the giant. Change your mind, your perspective and understanding. You no longer face adversity but embrace it.

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Pearls to Pigs

There’s this saying that comes to mind when thinking of people who take what’s good from you and misuse it, “don’t throw your pearls to pigs.” I did this a lot. I would give my very best to the very worst and never get any thanks or appreciation in return, which after a while made me quite upset.

I realised this was a patterned behaviour I had developed along the way. I would feel sorry for the wrong person, give them a chance in my life and shower them with love and affection. In return, I would wind up empty-handed, disappointed and mostly hurt, hurt because I was putting out so much good and getting absolutely nothing in return. It became a belief somehow that I was expected to perform on demand and give when asked, this was something only years of being forced into these patterns and forming this behaviour could have birthed.

It took me a long time to realise I was in fact not helping anyone especially myself. I really truly wanted to believe someone would finally appreciate me and all that I do, that love is an action and they know that and reciprocate their gratitude and form of love their way to me showing appreciation. This was never going to be the case. I was led to believe that you get what you give spiel but this was from narcissistic people who had their own agenda and gain from only my sacrifice, not theirs. I then began to form the mindset that I was now responsible for all these people just like me who needed someone to be the one to love them, help them unconditionally but never received it.

You can believe I got used, a lot. Now I tend to take a minute before feeling anything in every situation. I take a moment to focus and meditate on the truth in every area and aspect of what is happening and not what an over anxiously active mind can create. I begin to put everything into perspective and see I don’t owe anyone anything but I certainly deserve to be cared for in return, that I am simply not throwing my pearls to ungrateful pigs. Sure, a lot of people tend to have this idea now that you are needy or dependant but that is not the reality, in fact, they are along with critical and judgmental. You are simply learning to know the treasures you keep inside yourself and to not give them to simply anyone who may seem in need of them because not everyone will appreciate the gift you give them.

You see now why you must keep your gifts to yourself and only help those who truly need help. There are a lot of thieves and get rich quick types who are looking for the easy way out, but who does this benefit? You or them? It may seem like the right thing to do but it’s not. There are those who need to learn the hard way, whether it may be a friend, co-worker, someone your in a relationship with or would like to be or family. Let this lesson become a boundary, one you must learn to set for yourself. It will become the first hard lesson you do learn in breaking a toxic behaviour pattern. You do not owe anyone anything and vice versa, but if someone shows you kindness do not misplace that with ungratefulness, you must always shoe them great appreciation and that their sacrifice was not in vain, that they did not throw their pearl to a pig and you, in fact, are not a pig. Pig being a person who just keeps on gobbling up everything in their path with no consideration for those who gave it to you.

So before you decide or are guilt-tripped into helping someone, take that moment to put everything into perspective and see the truth for what it is. Will there be a resolution? Will there be reciprocation? Alternatively, will there just be another person using you because all you seem to do is give. Think about the people in your life who really need your help and are deserving of it, not just those you hope will deem you good finally after continually rescuing them from their own demise. Try it and see and don’t be surprised if you begin to preserve yourself, you won’t regret it.

Peace.

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