Connected

There was a wall between us, like a fort, it divided. You were safe inside and I was left outside. Everyday I’d come to you, just to be able to hear your voice. You made hours feel like minutes, your very presence was supernatural. You could make my darkest days seem so bright. You told me you had to go away for a while and you made me a promise I would forget. You told me that we would finally be connected, that we could see face to face, that there would be no more wall between us. It would finally be just us.

I’d never thought these days would be so dark, it felt like an eternity had fallen upon me and time froze with fear. There was no more light, there was no more conversation. There was nothing. We had been separated for so long we didn’t know each other anymore, or so it felt to me. You had disappeared. Why would you turn your face from me, did you really have to go? This bond I have to you is too strong for me to bear. I looked at that wall every day like I was an ant and it was a giant. It was the one thing that took you from me, how could we ever be together.

The sun rose this day and I remember how it felt. Like your hand on my should giving me comfort and reassurance. Today was the day, the wall came crumbling down. You gave your word and there I watched as it fell like dust. It no longer bore a resemblance to the division between you and me, it was no more. We could finally be together. We could meet face to face. You let me in to your kingdom and I could finally see what it meant to be you.

Healing

I was so inspired by Heal on Netflix I had to take some notes and share some thoughts, I hope you all are encouraged by what I have to share. Blessings.

When I was a child, I saw a doctor a lot, I was sick off from school and no one knew why but I did. It was fear and anxiety of being physically bullied every day by other students with the combination of stresses already in my home environment. This would affect any child unable to understand or process through emotions especially when I knew I couldn’t tell anyone because no one would help me. The doctor in his careless nature gave me Panadol for whatever symptom I would experience like a sore stomach or fever. I ended up getting Liver failure from the Panadol but also my external environment affecting my internal environment. My subconscious mind was more powerful than I could ever know as a child causing my health to plummet. I was taken to a naturopath and as he predicted the time frame for healing, I was healthier and healing in more ways than one. Another example was when I began high school and I was drowning in a traumatic environment once again, not saying anything and things were allowed to build up. I lost hair, eyelashes and I looked very unwell in general. Only once I made p my mind to heal and get my hair back, did it begin a journey of healing.

It would seem people are more reactive than preventative when it comes to illness. We tend to get to such a bad state and respond in fear and try to fix it and patch it over and never really deal with the root issue. Know what triggers it .here has to be something inside that is releasing that trigger response from receiving a trigger.

I believe fully that healing begins in the mind. Many people don’t ever really heal because of one of these reasons: they find it easier to not change their habits or lifestyle, so nothing changes, it accumulates, manifests and diversifies or they also begin change, start o feel better and stop, it’s like filling a car up a little bit then stop. You can drive but only a short distance until it runs out again. Healing begins within your ability to believe other than what you know, what your environment can dictate or how your life has taken on the subconscious environments over the years and years of life. Detox is never quick and easy or even enjoyable, it’s painful, birth is painful, life is painful but all great changes in life come from the pain of changing and growing, ridding yourself of the old and receiving in gratitude the new. If you can believe it every day you can feel it, triggering the brain chemistry to start that healing. It all comes from the choices we make from the things we think or feel and how we respond to them.

Our ideal of health and health structure is set by those who have told us what health is or is not. They tell us what is healthy and what is not, yet all the while we never take responsibility for our health and look into what we are being given or told. Health is not just exercising to hide our binge on processed foods the night before or a seemingly healthy breakfast, it’s our environments that affect us every day. The Earth/outdoor environment around us, it affects us either positively or negatively. The external like our stressful work or home environment. It is our Internal environment, our consciousness interprets our external environment. Our nervous system affects our internal based on our external. SO belief is beyond biology. We can undo diabetes, unhealthy relationships with food and alcohol by getting to root issue of why we do what we do, including accept a negative environment. We also absorb from our subconscious environment from those around us and their behaviours. Trauma, alcoholism, conflict all affect us till later life that our filter of life becomes so tainted by that subconscious mind. Recognising that these stressors are important in our healing. it’s the first step.

Emotional freedom is an important part of healing. It allows us to go to those parts where things are accumulating mentally and emotionally. This subconscious reaction again does affect us, our brain is sending signals constantly throughout the body and if they are coherent waves then healing, growth and repair begin. Stress breaks this and it causes a breakdown, the waves are jagged and the brain receives this message matches it. Just like a polygraph we need to read these signals. they are either a notice or warning of your situation. I do remember every time without fail when I made up my mind and changed my life, it did. Everything aligned into the right way I needed it to be and my whole and all environmental factors changed because I changed them creating a new safe place where I could thrive and not feel like I was being suffocated.

if you want to prevent disease, prevent build up. It begins not in just physiology but psychology, but also forgiveness. All thoughts happen within us every day and affect us whether we know it or not. When we forgive we release all anger resentment. It doesn’t let them off the hook but forgiveness is about ME letting GO and you let go of all victim mindset or pain you hold onto and you generate healing because we all know that our thoughts can consume us just as much as the disease can.

This is the basic step-by-step process in which our health can begin to nosedive over time:

  • Accumulation of just too much energy in our system
  • Stress – keep taking on stressor
  • Localisation – they find a weak spot and manifests and diversifies

Health is not just a prescription from the doctor, it’s not constant gym sessions or “health foods” full of preservatives and additives. It’s everything you put into your world and how you absorb it too. Walking in nature, slowly, breathing, focusing, calming, is more effective than taking a panadol, sitting in front of a computer in a building. That’s how we were made to live, in a connected environment not a separated, cold or clinal area. Exposure to life strengthens us and grows us. Our mind taking processing both these scenarios creates enjoyment of stress. We should not dread our life but thrive in it and sometimes that means small changes creating a new routine. I know a lot of people disregard holistic natural healing and health care because it’s just so ‘unreal’ but it gives us a much-needed break. We stop, let go and change a thought or emotion, we learn to let go of said thoughts or emotions that we kept, that kept pushing us to break ourselves down and cause us issues within ourselves.

To combat these I try what would be consider alternative methods, which is incorrect because there is nothing alternative about going for a walk or just breathing in sea air. I truly believe a high dose of antibiotics as an uncertain solution is the alternative method and still doesn’t provide healing but destroys all good and bad bacteria in our gut. You can’t have just conventional medicine or spiritual/energy healing. I believe that the eastern way of life QiGong has the right balance of understanding plants as medicine and how to live a lifestyle where emergence can take place and transformation is completed. No short cuts.I hold the belief that health is from within, we decide what affects us, how we heal. I have found that it begins with our daily intake of food, what are we putting into our body, it’s like a fertilizer that nurtures and nourishes our physical body and affects our gut which affects our subconscious and emotional state.

So the connection is there. Meditation or belief in entanglement has become another clarity where I can use this as a tool for security in myself, my emotional and spiritual state are at ease and helps ease my thoughts and calm my soul. My consciousness is now under control and not out of control. Creating an environment in my home or work takes work, I can create a personal environment in my home where I can clean and organise and personalise to my joy, my work I can just add joy and peace into others lives and try not to absorb their energy and hopefully influence them into positive energy changes which are like the domino effect, changing their thoughts, emotions, spirit and body.

Science doesn’t have all the answers yet but that doesn’t mean these things aren’t real. There is nothing wrong with an open mind to see healing and change alongside changing our routines, habits, thoughts into new and positive ways. , healing cannot be one without the other, it needs all of you to work together and work towards that goal of healing, think it, breathe it, feel it every day. That’s where the healing comes from. Focus on life, something that brings you joy, spend time doing things that make you feel good, life is such a blessing and happening all around us. I don’t have all the answers but I certainly have more from what I’ve been through.

Love of the Earth, Love of Each Other and Love of our Children

Heal – Netflix

Creating a New You, it all starts and ends with you.

When it comes to starting over it’s hard to find a good resource or trustworthy place of information on how to change yourself initially, to form healthy habits and break old ones and find a way to become new but the newness being the rebirth of being your true, authentic self. I recently got asked by a dear friend for some recommendations on who I had been following on platforms like youtube. After sending screenshots and links I knew I had to share with you all these links to a higher life. There are many people out there who are doing things true to their nature or not, true to being focused on the light or sharing darkness instead. When we think of the spiritual realm and for those who know its truth and those who are seeking it, we can find an answer at every turn. It may not be true, it may not be right or it may be completely off par. It’s so difficult to find the truth we seek when what we feel, the change that takes place is indescribable but we know surely the answer is out there.

Thats the thing about spiritual growth we look for the visible magic but have been fooled to believe that’s all it is. It is buried deep inside us, to grow from our own nurturing of soul and mind. So to help you along I want to share some great beginning places I took basic steps and thoughts from and grew more on my own. I began with The Holistic Psychologist, now I know everyone raved about it but I had finally decided to give it a look and see what the fuss was about. It began my journey, I started with future self journalling and that helped solidify my time of sitting, meditation, reflection, just reconnecting with myself. I began to work on the past, change my heart and I saw real changes. This led to Candace Van Dell, I found her on Instagram than on youtube. Her videos were very encouraging as she began to dig that little bit deeper and I started to see who I was as an Empath. This gave me a form of my identity and who I was, who I had pushed to the back of consciousness for a long time.

I began to follow my instincts and I joined multiple groups on Facebook for empaths, which lead to great discussions opening the window to the truth of my gifts. These gifts I held dear and kept secret because I was at the constant strike of criticism and control, I realise now how broken in spirit I was to be trying so hard to get these people to just trust in me and to know who I am. I learnt more about myself than ever before in any way because I allowed it to come to the forefront of my existence, I can feel it at all times working with harmony in my soul, heart and mind. There are many gifts that come with being an Empath, old soul, even a light seed. I have learnt to trust, grow and express my gifts and strengths, to which I love to use to guide others in their journey forward, they also are used to teach me about our world as it was fabricated and woven together for the good of all mankind. My need for answers has grown and I no longer look to others for answers when I know they are always within. I have my list of music saved and changed on Spotify from all music that was noise that created emotion, fed emotions or blocked emotions within me to now sounds that clear energy blocks, aid in relaxation and meditation, for focus and writing. I’ve learnt I don’t need “words of advice” from others when I can hear my own and know the real truth because of the conviction it bares, I know this wholly because I can feel it.

I have learnt to trust myself and I ask you do the same. There will always be opposition and fear of who you are and what you’re capable of, from others and maybe even yourself but if you are in the light then remind yourself who you are and where you’re gift comes from. We can’t do these things without the strength of our source and giver of gifts. People practice many things but those who can create real change do no matter what the opinion and opposition of those around them. Not hatred or haste, but the real spirit of love and light can guide the way. I hope these basic beginnings help you to, to even get started, encourage, find your way and you take your growth in your own hands. Your destiny always belongs to you and you alone have the power to bring life to yourself and to others.

Bring to life all that’s within, let it bloom, let it begin.

Eliminate Self-Limiting Beliefs

I had the privilege of joining an online webinar about Eliminating Self-Limiting Beliefs and it was very encouraging to hear others in similar situations with the ability to change and grow from it. I want to share with you all about reflecting on my own life, where the self-limiting beliefs came from, how I can identify them and now, how I am to shift my paradigm with my mind. I know I want more so it’s time to heal what was done and let myself be free from all these ties. Starting with reflecting on my whole story so far, I can see issues that I am held back in:

  1. My mind, I feel like I don’t have control over my own life, I think about a lot of regrets held in the past.
  2. My heart, not allowing myself or being allowed to love freely, as I choose. I had to pretend to be someone else and go against my own desires.
  3. My soul, not truly living or feeling peace, my heart and soul are connected and they both were tied together and weighed down by the actions and choices of others. I was very controlled and didn’t realise I could choose for myself because every-time I expressed myself, ideal or desire for the freedom it was taken away, broken down.
  4. My relationships and expression of intimacy, I was very restricted and controlled, it broke me a lot and created a lot of unhealthy relationship patterns.
  5. My financial freedom, I am the only responsible person financially and have people who demand what is mine from me, this made me doubt my abilities and self-worth a lot especially in a work environment, career progression and confidence to do what I loved.

As you can see there was a lot of limitations and doubts being set, due to outside influences. My biggest strength, my heart and soul, became a great weakness because they instilled me that I was not my own person, I could not choose for myself and I could not live as I had desired. In my duty to create a better future for myself, these are the positive affirmations I have made to match the self-limiting beliefs I have held for a long time.

  1. My mind, self-belief in me, that I am able to see what I want to do and how I choose to live my life and that I will live it and succeed.
  2. My heart, love as I choose and accept who I choose into my heart.
  3. My soul and actual living, who I am and how I choose to see myself and live is based on the inner workings of me.
  4. My relationships and expression of intimacy, used wholeheartedly and unsuppressed, it is healthy, flourishing and to be known as a beautiful part of human existence.
  5. My financial freedom, I have no restrictions and love and use this tool to create an incredible life of care, generosity and provision for my future generations. My own life is excitable and well lived.

My Mantra for Unleashing My Beliefs:

I give myself the key to freedom, to see myself flourish and grow. To be successful and prosperous. To live the life I choose, not one laid out for me, one that does not benefit me or love me. I was not made to limit myself, so I do not give anyone else the power to create limitations for me. I will live my most authentic, blessed, full life where I bless others and I am blessed by those around me, those who love me.

I hope you can work through your own self limiting beliefs and write out what was and what is to be. Sit, envision, believe it and when you enter into those situations create it. With the power of your mind and spirit, you energy and higher vibration will draw these things to you like a magnet. The truth I’ve realised is we attract and accept either positive or negative environments, people, emotions. So it’s time to address what’s really going on and begin to make a change.

Shining Star, the Inspirer

So, what have a learnt today in my meditation and time away from the unruly noise around me? The importance of the message, the ability to inspire others to create change and impact others and how we tend to get so fixated on our own importance and role in inspiring and influencing others and the credit we get for sharing the gifts and messages we receive so freely.

I really want to focus on the negative mindset behind the ability to be recognised. We crave it and need it, with social media platforms like Instagram we are allowed to feed this desire for admiration and validation. The majority of us don’t use it as a tool to reach the masses but as a step stool for our own ego. We haven’t learnt how to silence the need inside to be validated so we feed it so we feel it may stay quiet. How did we forget that we are already so worthy and beautiful? With insecurity and isolation, we are sacrificed to the loneliness that hurts the most, but with a filter, we can filter our reality and create a place where we feel we can mask our true identity. We should be considering our own pain as a thing of beauty, to use as its own tool to healing deeper inside our hearts and minds. We can embody the virtue of the spider, weaving our own truth to share with others to help enlighten them, help them grow and break old ways and form a new future that is filled with light, love and hope.

In amongst eh confidence and interesting lives and talents people share are we really helping make a change in the world with them or do we use them so we can exalt our status or so we can use it as a tool to help others. Are we so broken we are fixated on our own darkness that we can find the light in us and share it with others? These are just some of the thoughts and questions that stood out in my daily meditation for this morning. That it is the message that is important not me the messenger. I am not the creator of my own gift but God is the creator who decided to give it to me freely, so I should do the same, share who I am with others. That being someone who has been through the darkness and comes out somehow with the light shining ever brighter. It is not my own success that I share but the ability to understand and that what I’ve been through is a gift to share from what I learnt.

We all have our own gifts and abilities to give into this world and instead of hiding them, disregarding them as relevant or already cutting ourselves down with premeditated thoughts of others negative responses, let’s just give. There were so many times I longed for an honest answer to one of my life’s difficult questions and no had the answer or no one had the guts to tell me the truth. I realise now it’s because they couldn’t even be honest and real with themselves about their own situation and life. So here we all are, together on one big beautiful planet we all can call home, maybe we should act more like a family than enemies and maybe the world would change for better. We can’t change the whole world but we can change our immediate self, our own situation and life and that if we all do this we do impact the space around us. We can change the world but only if we change our own selves, inside out.

I hope this encourages you to think about your own self, what you’re going through and how you feel. Begin to seek answers and dig a little deeper. You will find the healing you need and then comes the freedom. You will be comfortable for the first time in a long time, your cares and worries begin to dissipate into non-existence. You will begin to bear the light to shine into others lives and help them where they are at. You will begin to make a difference. It doesn’t need to be recognised by national television for it to be important, just by the person you pour into. Sometimes it’s the actions others can repay that mean the most, that when we take action that cannot be returned we’ve truly fulfilled the law of humanity, to love one another.

Let’s change our mindsets from ME to YOU and the only way to do that is to deal with ourselves first then we can use the strength we have to help others. I believe in all things good as irrational as that may seem, it keeps me flowing right and that flows into those around me. That’s better than a constant toxic person, right? Think about it. We all have the power to impact those around us just with a word or attitude. So choose wisely what energy you choose to manifest into being around you and into others.

Zen Out versus Zone Out

Many of us tend to zone out after days of work and studies, terrible routines and lack of self-care we turn to the ability to zone out to be our saving grace. When we zone out we hope to press the reset button but all we do is check out for a moment to return to the ever ensuing chaos around us wearing us down.

I am learning to zen out, I really feel it once I’ve done it properly. I can’t rush it or force it to happen to be achieved quickly. It’s a personal process and a step we can take every day. For me, I tend to self future journal, I really allow things inside me to speak and I listen instead of the other way around. I begin to reflect a lot deeper and allow this time to be calm and quiet with music or just the sounds of life outside my window which usually fades the deeper I go. I can do this anywhere but choose to make my home my sanctuary of peace and blissful zen. I always feel like I have actually achieved a state of rest and refresh.

I compare my experience and transition from trying to just zone out to actual zen out and the experience is one you must have for yourself. Only you can take yourself to the next level and silence the noise in your life, calm and refocus the doubts and put a pin in the stresses of daily expectations.

I encourage you to give this a try and see the difference. You will not only feel relaxed but you will begin to see the changes in you and your life. You’ll see first hand how a minute of intentional meditation can change your day and if you do this every day, you’ll see your life take a new higher path, you’ll begin ascension into a fresh journey. We all have the power inside ourselves and mind, we just need to learn how to begin the process of change. We have nothing to lose and all to gain.

Evoke Emotion

I remember when I was little and anticipation for my birthday or Christmas struck. I could feel it so vividly, it would overcome me with electric vibration. I wouldn’t be able to sleep the night before because I knew just what the next day would bring, only great things. I felt this last night. I couldn’t understand why and then I woke with the same excitement and anticipation. I realised, it was my son’s birthday and this was his energy. The more I meditate and connect to who I am the more I learn about how deeply I am really connected to those around me, I can feel their energy. It brought a humbling reminder to me that we get so lost in our own adult lives that any sort of joy or excitement gets swallowed whole by work, family, friends. It’s like we can’t even enjoy those things anymore, they’re either routine or a struggle to really relax into.

It’s harder when you have children because you are unable to live your life as you once pleased. You must readjust and most of the time my life is now spent revolving around others, their needs and time frames and not my own. I don’t get to make time for me to indulge a catch up with a friend, no plans are set to look forward to, no break awaits and no sicks days exist. I am completely absorbed in my daily struggle to survive. This experience has taught me an important reminder as not only how important it is to not forget to take an intentional time to enjoy life but why it is important. We forget who we are and why we exist. We don’t enjoy any part of it and what existence would be worthwhile if all we do is sacrifice and suffer. Now a lot of other people are able to receive the helping hand they need and take some much need me-time and couple-time but we don’t and thankfully we try to work in our early morning quiet times and evening rest times once the children are asleep.

It was sad to think that all this time I had forgotten the excitement that should be felt in our lives, that we are worth celebrating and life is worth celebrating and we should feel that so deeply, but we don’t. We are swallowed by work deadlines, stresses and trying relationships. The trifecta that destroys us because while we are trying to feel something we’re filling the hollow in ourselves with things that invoke no sense of activation to us. We’re still remaining empty and lifeless. I really hope you get a chance to remember and hold on to that joy and excitement you once had, that you never let it go. We should always feel like so vividly and project our emotions so clearly that we can use it as a guide. Our emotions are our instincts when we are happy we are in a positive place if we’re sad we’re in a negative one, but we seem to ignore it and keep going when we should just let it be.

I really hope this encourages you to take some time and remember how it feels to experience life through the eyes of your inner child and maybe your life will begin to blossom once again. I am really thankful for my beautiful children and the inner child reminding me to stop and feel, to really begin to understand others and myself through emotions. Emotions are a powerful guide that we can trust if we really listen to what they are telling us.

Hit REFRESH

I hope you all take some time to hit the refresh button this lovely Sunday and just relax. I find it very hard to do this as there is always something to do, but I’ve had to start making the time.

How many times do we push ourselves to the brink of exhaustion, everything we do is under pressure and we rush and hurry. As a mother this is bound to happen, trying to get a toddler and baby ready then somehow myself. Everyone depends on me to do things for them and others call on me because I’m dependable and always happy to help but in amongst this I forget me. I forget how important I am and I forget how to relax and unwind, mostly because I feel like I can’t or shouldn’t or don’t have the option to. Sound familiar?

This is where I had to acknowledge my pattern of behaviour and how negatively it was affecting me. I had to learn to let go of the rush and time press and just let things sit for a minute because making time to do things is as almost as important as being able to relax and re-centre yourself. Leave all the weight at the door and enter your own sanctuary where you can find peace to carry throughout your day. I try to be very intentional with my mornings and start my day off with #futureselfjournaling and just let the dishes be, they’re always going to exist.

What seems to be lacking is my ability to unwind for a minute and finding my focus for the day. Without, I realised how unsettled I am.

I encourage you, just take a minute with a cup of something and sit outside, turn your room into a cove of peace or even in the shower and most importantly leave the phone behind. Just breathe, focus on something your day seems to revolve around and begin to speak life into it, see it in your mind how well will go and how successful it will be. If things go another way not planned to your expectations, learn to be thankful for it and learn to accept the things we have no control over, learn to see it as a necessary outcome as much as things must happen so they mustn’t. We seem to be angered at the thought that something we have revolved out thought and emotion around and invested doesn’t come to fruition, we built ourselves up for frustration instead of seeing with new eyes and allowing things to take us down a different path and to see it is good too.

Ready yourself for a day with a focus and hopefully, you’ll be able to feel the calm wash over you. You’ll find your centre and be ready to approach this day with new thoughts and fresh emotions. As a parent, I try to do this when both my children are happy and occupied or asleep. It doesn’t take long and just sets us all up for a great if not, wonderful day.

As a parent this is apart of my change into conscious parenting. It will make a difference as a worker, as a parent, child, every individual. This is NOT just sitting and doing nothing, you are purposefully breaking a habit and creating a new one where you a letting go of the negative thoughts and feelings and deciding to take on new positive ones instead. You are aligning yourself to a new way of living and being. You are choosing to be better, calming, more conscious of yourself and of others.

I hope you enjoy your day and try a new mindset, wear calm and feel the strength from your new set day.

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