freedom – Esoteric Realms

August 20, 2019December 27, 2021

The Right Time

Relationships are a great construction of two people giving of themselves wholly. As time has passed there have been many lessons we’ve all learnt from each other, some good some bad, some not so great. In saying this, there have been many lessons we take from examples of those around us in our family, friends, movies and maybe even inspired through and from movies. We are constantly looking all around us seeing these relationships take form and exist like the air we breathe. It has great power to be seen, great power to bring those great men to tenderness and timid women to great strength. We find ourselves in each other, in every situation, we transform and grow.

There are many examples where we are young and we can choose each other and love for the rest of our days, there are loves were taken or lost, loves that are shattered and loves that are yet to be. Funny how we can feel those words without even having to think twice. Love being the bond between two individuals making them one, we learn to accept parts and correct others. We can break or make ourselves and others in the environment we create. With words lost and actions, we can never return we break and destroy, with words and actions thoughtfully planned we can control and with thoughts and actions inspired we can ignite a flame that may never stop growing if we keep trusting that feeling that grows ever more with positive acknowledgment from our beloved.

We are all so tender and fragile, entering into a commitment we may not fully understand but our best intentions are our best card at dealing with whatever may come next. We decide we are going to do this together, the other persons suffering and needs are greater than our own. We don’t decide it we just feel it and go with it because if we don’t then we suffer too. We are incredible creatures to know ourselves in every secret place, we know our truest emotions and the things we love or despise. As time goes on we know our truest self, what we will accept in any of our relationships, we now set a standard because we have learnt or grown through fire, what we know we are worthy of receiving, what standard of love we desire to receive and no longer settle for those that are not worthy of our time or energy. We learn to accept we are so worthy of receiving because all we do is give, day or night at the drop of a hat there would be nothing we wouldn’t do to battle for our loved one. We learn so we want someone to reciprocate this action to us, no more empty words, promises, time being wasted, we are ready for the whole package. We accept nothing less now.

Love is a grand thing but it is not alive unless we give it life. We are the holders of life to create what we will. We cannot wait around praying and hoping, life is what happens when we decide on the action then live it out. That is living, that is life, that is love. Every day giving to each other, thinking of one another, being thoughtful, considerate, protecting, sacrificing. Someone else’s needs are your priority, through the thick and thin of it. Love is not you thinking you are a good person, it is you doing what is right every day, every night, every moment you can. They will always be your priority, your number one and if work, friends or other activities take that place, no one can receive the love they deserve from you if they give you priority in their life and vice versa. You learn that in time, you can do better, be better and accept nothing less than better than what you’re getting or giving right now.

Time is a great teacher of all things we allow ourselves to learn from the past, change our present so when we create our future we are creating memories that are worth remembering, that always last.

“Do not awaken love before it’s the right time.”
Song of Solomon 8:4

July 28, 2019December 31, 2021

Black Mirror – Hang the DJ

So like all Black Mirror episodes, we are taken on a journey into the future where things seem all too familiar. This episode reflects on a system that gathers information on individuals over a series of relationships. Frank and Amy, our leading gent and lady, are absolutely perfect for each other, they know it, we know, but the system decides against it. They enjoy a 12 hour “relationship” all thanks to a system that is 99.8% accurate and successful for the perfect match, or so they say.

So as many people know how the episode goes, I’m not here to give a rewrite but share what stood out to me, my takeaway message as you would have it. We seem to believe or convince ourselves to stay in the wrong relationships. Whether it be because it’s convenient, deeper emotional issues like trauma bonding, or just convincing yourself you have to be in it for any reason. Yet the ones we desire most we believe or convince ourselves we aren’t able or allowed to. Why do we do this to ourselves, I know I am very guilty of this. For an array of unbelievable reasons, I stayed in a place that was not my home as you would have it. It was not a place of comfort, support or representative of any love whatsoever.

I find it baffling that we have this mixed up psychology in relationships, that we can seek out unhealthy and incompatible people and somehow try and bond to them. Why? Not everyone does this, and I know for a fact it has a lot to do with how we are treated and reared from birth well into our early adult life. We feel this sense of duty to those who are not reciprocal in our affections and understanding of our needs, or those who have diminished our self identity and tell us who we can or cannot choose to be loved by. No, I don’t mean the people who are right in their warnings, but those who are controlling of all our choices.

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The other part that stood out was this understanding of how terrible the experience of having to endure meaningless relationships, one after the other. You’re waiting and hoping for it to end, or you’re full aware that it will end soon enough, and it’s so tiresome emotionally. The right match we search for, find and hold onto, yet it seems like everything including a flawless system tries to pull you apart. You will know if you’re a perfect match, you’ll know your twin flame, the other part of yourself.

It would seem the moment we take back our power and stop watching the clock is also the moment the greatest fear comes of if it had to end just like every other relationship because even though you know it’s the one, there could be this moment where we lose it all. Fear and terror of past emotional trauma takes over, and it would seem that we become the cause of a foreseeable end or issue to arise. We program ourselves into responding so negatively, we hurt ourselves before anything even happens.

The biggest take home message I have is, don’t ever give your power away or anyone to decide your life for you or leave it up to chance. It’s all you, you know who you draw to yourself and vice versa. We’ll know how to navigate through it because it is ours.

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June 21, 2019June 21, 2019

I Am Your Source.

Before you read on I want to add this in, I personally believe the one divine creator is God. Now you may believe something different but I do believe we can agree that there is one ultimate being who is good and kind. It is my personal experience, I’ve seen what I’ve seen and can’t change that and I know what truth has been revealed to me. I also know this is something we can’t take that away from each other. I know the whole spiritual realm seems to be either far fetched, evil mystical or only good based on a certain faith, but no one chooses this and I know now, we are gifted with it. I also believe it connects us. This is so much more than what spiritualism etc has been portrayed or used for, this is the bigger, real, every day picture.

So, if you want to be encouraged read on —

It’s been an interesting morning spiritually and I wanted to share with all what has been taking place over the last 24 hours. It’s amazing how we are entering into existence when we finally learn to be connected to our higher self. This lesson starts from yesterday afternoon, I was on my way to do the kindy pick up and I began to have a somewhat comedic but cute thought about myself as a bumble bee and I was dancing upon a sunflower. Strange, odd and completely relevant. I had received a reading from another person later that day and I have been given the Cosmic Flower. I didn’t make any correlation at the time but I had received the answer I was looking for unwittingly before the actual reading was revealed. It’s a process to learn to dig deep into my visions and learn from them, understand, process them and acknowledge their validity.

In short, this Cosmic Flower I had received activates our remembrance of the place we call home – the core from which we pour our magnificence out into the world. It didn’t mean too much to me then as I hadn’t put the vision to the reading together. It was encouraging and interesting at the least at that moment. Well, fast forward to today, I came home from kindy drop off, finished a phone call and was weighed down by anxiety. My heart could not stop hurting. So I decided it was time to meditate and dig deeper into what was going on and find the answers I needed. Needless to say, it took me a long time to really relax and focus on my morning meditation, so after really trying to hone into what was happening inside me I decided it was time to write it out if thinking deeply wasn’t going to get this healing process started.

Suddenly it was like the vision and the reading clicked together in my mind and it made so much sense. I realised I was the bee but this time it was God who I had to seek as he was always my Cosmic Flower. I began to see spiritually, that I was sitting and around me was like a tornado wall of fire and it would just circle around me, I began to see the colour orange as well. Orange represents fire and expanding energy. It was like all these pieces were forming together, that I finally was clear on what was going on inside me. Then I heard a voice, it said: I am Your Source. It has been repeating itself over and over and I can’t believe how deeply this resonates with me.

Know you have the background let me put this all together. I am the cause of my own pain and anxiety, I chose my own “power” over Gods ability. He is our source which means when I need to do something, He is the one powering me with all ability. This has given me so much as peace as I’ve come to learn of who I am and as I embrace my gift. I resisted my true self for song long in fear of what I would become but again God has reminded me I would never turn to evil or be as people would call me, I am given a gift from him to help others and He alone is the source to my power, He provides all I need as I need it.

WOW.

I am humbled by this increase in generosity and freedom I know accept into my life. I reminded gently a God transforms me into something new, something I’ve always been and someone who is not evil but good. He knows what he is doing and that no one can tell me who I am or what I am or what I do is right or wrong because God has told me that it is from Him. So today, if you struggle as I do to embrace your true nature, do it because God wants you to know you are his, He is your source and He only gives good gifts. If He has given us these good gifts no one can take them away unless we decide to hide them. Then we will be at war with ourselves internally causing things like anxiety, stress, heartbreak. Remember the ultimate divine being is our source, what more could we want or ask for! He will teach us and guide us and all we need is in Him. No games or tricks are required to hone into who you are and use your gift because you are already connected and well equipped. All we need to do is acknowledge Gods our Cosmic Flower and we will be so grounded and centred. HE WILL PROVIDE ALL THINGS. Not some, select or maybe, but ALL THINGS. He knows our needs. He is our grand creator after all.