awakening – Esoteric Realms

August 20, 2019December 27, 2021

The Right Time

Relationships are a great construction of two people giving of themselves wholly. As time has passed there have been many lessons we’ve all learnt from each other, some good some bad, some not so great. In saying this, there have been many lessons we take from examples of those around us in our family, friends, movies and maybe even inspired through and from movies. We are constantly looking all around us seeing these relationships take form and exist like the air we breathe. It has great power to be seen, great power to bring those great men to tenderness and timid women to great strength. We find ourselves in each other, in every situation, we transform and grow.

There are many examples where we are young and we can choose each other and love for the rest of our days, there are loves were taken or lost, loves that are shattered and loves that are yet to be. Funny how we can feel those words without even having to think twice. Love being the bond between two individuals making them one, we learn to accept parts and correct others. We can break or make ourselves and others in the environment we create. With words lost and actions, we can never return we break and destroy, with words and actions thoughtfully planned we can control and with thoughts and actions inspired we can ignite a flame that may never stop growing if we keep trusting that feeling that grows ever more with positive acknowledgment from our beloved.

We are all so tender and fragile, entering into a commitment we may not fully understand but our best intentions are our best card at dealing with whatever may come next. We decide we are going to do this together, the other persons suffering and needs are greater than our own. We don’t decide it we just feel it and go with it because if we don’t then we suffer too. We are incredible creatures to know ourselves in every secret place, we know our truest emotions and the things we love or despise. As time goes on we know our truest self, what we will accept in any of our relationships, we now set a standard because we have learnt or grown through fire, what we know we are worthy of receiving, what standard of love we desire to receive and no longer settle for those that are not worthy of our time or energy. We learn to accept we are so worthy of receiving because all we do is give, day or night at the drop of a hat there would be nothing we wouldn’t do to battle for our loved one. We learn so we want someone to reciprocate this action to us, no more empty words, promises, time being wasted, we are ready for the whole package. We accept nothing less now.

Love is a grand thing but it is not alive unless we give it life. We are the holders of life to create what we will. We cannot wait around praying and hoping, life is what happens when we decide on the action then live it out. That is living, that is life, that is love. Every day giving to each other, thinking of one another, being thoughtful, considerate, protecting, sacrificing. Someone else’s needs are your priority, through the thick and thin of it. Love is not you thinking you are a good person, it is you doing what is right every day, every night, every moment you can. They will always be your priority, your number one and if work, friends or other activities take that place, no one can receive the love they deserve from you if they give you priority in their life and vice versa. You learn that in time, you can do better, be better and accept nothing less than better than what you’re getting or giving right now.

Time is a great teacher of all things we allow ourselves to learn from the past, change our present so when we create our future we are creating memories that are worth remembering, that always last.

“Do not awaken love before it’s the right time.”
Song of Solomon 8:4

July 6, 2019October 1, 2019

My understanding of the purpose of Crystals

So I have been transitioning myself a lot lately into who I am and exploring the avenues available to me. I’ve met a lot of interesting people and joined a lot of groups (thanks Facebook and Instagram) and have found myself growing every day in new ways. Which all in all is such a breath of fresh air and a blessing.

One of the ways I look to grow myself is to understand different paths available to us that we can use tools and knowing everything around has life, vibration and is in coexistence with us. The interest in things like crystals and gemstones has come on in the last week or so and just wanting to understand why I am so drawn to rose quartz of all things! I hate being cliche and feel like rose quartz is the stone every has and loves but getting over myself and may need to be unique, it’s exactly what I need. I am truly rose quartz, I lead with my heart and hope all else follows.

To love is my highest calling and desire, I ensure it is constant action and that I allow it to be a timeless reminder. I don’t love broken relationships as I feel them break me, I never allow poor excuses to stand in my way and through hell and high water you will know I love you. I learnt to understand this was not a curse but a blessing and as an Empath with a desire to love, I could accept it’s intensity and learn to respect those who were worthy of it would show it and not use my endless resource as a toy. I learnt self-respect and learnt to love myself.

Rose quartz represents all things to do with your heart, like self-affirmation, self-esteem, balance emotion and confidence. Which all sounds pretty good, but the deeper I go and the more I tune it I realise that we use crystals and are connected to them because they are a reflection of who we are inside and I believe rose quartz calls to me because it is the reminder I need to refuel, refresh, cleanse and release the love needed around me. It is the reflection of who I am. We choose the stone that stands out the most, that we are drawn to and it is the constant reminder of our strength to love, to forgive, to heal. Beautiful right? I’m honestly in awe of this revelation and greater appreciation and understanding of our creator creating these beautiful reminds for us to vibrate higher.

We should embrace ourselves as we do others and encourage ourselves as we encourage others but most importantly when we feel lost, remind ourselves it’s our time to shine. We can learn a lot of crystals especially as an Empath, just as they need cleansing and recharging, so do we! Whether that’s through the water to cleanse, earth to be grounded, the moon to be recharged or the sun to help us shine brighter, we can and should take these reminds as gospel. We can and will activate those around us and our energy will transform them for the better.

Let’s wash off the history of yesterday and glow in today’s glory.

Love to you all and I hope you find your crystal/s to remind you daily of who you are and show you your reflection, may they help you through your day.

Note: I can understand there are people may think they’re just empty objects, pretty to look at, used as a sham in a spiritual movement or even something used in sinister practices, but they’re not. They were created just as we are with life and energy. Finding deeper meaning in a precious stone doesn’t make you unreasonable, unrealistic or wicked, it shows your awareness into the life ALL around you.

July 6, 2019July 7, 2019

Eliminate Self-Limiting Beliefs

I had the privilege of joining an online webinar about Eliminating Self-Limiting Beliefs and it was very encouraging to hear others in similar situations with the ability to change and grow from it. I want to share with you all about reflecting on my own life, where the self-limiting beliefs came from, how I can identify them and now, how I am to shift my paradigm with my mind. I know I want more so it’s time to heal what was done and let myself be free from all these ties. Starting with reflecting on my whole story so far, I can see issues that I am held back in:

My mind, I feel like I don’t have control over my own life, I think about a lot of regrets held in the past.
My heart, not allowing myself or being allowed to love freely, as I choose. I had to pretend to be someone else and go against my own desires.
My soul, not truly living or feeling peace, my heart and soul are connected and they both were tied together and weighed down by the actions and choices of others. I was very controlled and didn’t realise I could choose for myself because every-time I expressed myself, ideal or desire for the freedom it was taken away, broken down.
My relationships and expression of intimacy, I was very restricted and controlled, it broke me a lot and created a lot of unhealthy relationship patterns.
My financial freedom, I am the only responsible person financially and have people who demand what is mine from me, this made me doubt my abilities and self-worth a lot especially in a work environment, career progression and confidence to do what I loved.

As you can see there was a lot of limitations and doubts being set, due to outside influences. My biggest strength, my heart and soul, became a great weakness because they instilled me that I was not my own person, I could not choose for myself and I could not live as I had desired. In my duty to create a better future for myself, these are the positive affirmations I have made to match the self-limiting beliefs I have held for a long time.

My mind, self-belief in me, that I am able to see what I want to do and how I choose to live my life and that I will live it and succeed.
My heart, love as I choose and accept who I choose into my heart.
My soul and actual living, who I am and how I choose to see myself and live is based on the inner workings of me.
My relationships and expression of intimacy, used wholeheartedly and unsuppressed, it is healthy, flourishing and to be known as a beautiful part of human existence.
My financial freedom, I have no restrictions and love and use this tool to create an incredible life of care, generosity and provision for my future generations. My own life is excitable and well lived.

My Mantra for Unleashing My Beliefs:

I give myself the key to freedom, to see myself flourish and grow. To be successful and prosperous. To live the life I choose, not one laid out for me, one that does not benefit me or love me. I was not made to limit myself, so I do not give anyone else the power to create limitations for me. I will live my most authentic, blessed, full life where I bless others and I am blessed by those around me, those who love me.

I hope you can work through your own self limiting beliefs and write out what was and what is to be. Sit, envision, believe it and when you enter into those situations create it. With the power of your mind and spirit, you energy and higher vibration will draw these things to you like a magnet. The truth I’ve realised is we attract and accept either positive or negative environments, people, emotions. So it’s time to address what’s really going on and begin to make a change.

June 22, 2019June 22, 2019

Learning to accept the Flow of Life

For a while now I’ve noticed a tight heart feeling inside me. This started after my first child was born. I’ve only realised now how I’ve felt for a long time, that I had to be in control of every situation because I simply couldn’t depend on any else to come and help me when I so desperately needed it. This was even before having children. I had been pushed into an overactive state and never really got to release myself out of it. When it seems like everyone else in your life has expectations and negative responses for you, you begin to work overtime.

Mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually I can feel how much damage it has done so far and how I can’t relax properly. I never unwind. Today is one of those days where I finally noticed how much I’ve learnt from my own short journey with meditation and reflection. I was meant to be moving the mass of boxes into our new home, I was going to be pre-emptive with how much I could achieve before actual deadlines would appear but I began to let go and realise how overactive I am functioning in this thought pattern. How again, I had a plan to help myself but today was having none of it.

I’m going to move a small load on my own, I’m okay with this because despite how much I would try my best in this situation if roles were reversed I have to stop projecting what I’ve been forced to do onto others and that we tend to do this a lot. We put unnecessary pressure and expectations onto a certain situation or person because it’s become a very unhealthy learned habit and we break them down instead of allowing them some grace. This isn’t because of personality it’s because of conditioning over the years that others played the guilt card and when you’re an Empath it’s easy to begin to get played on the basis of emotion. “You must because” or your ability to choose gets taken away. A lot of people like to respond and say “well, you can say no”! Actually, no you can’t we say no and it goes pear shaped very quickly usually with their response that is narcissistic, abusive or controlling. We back down and begin to stop fighting back it’s easier to just stay silent, to be a slave and just keep trying to do the right thing under a fear fuelled pressure.

We need to begin to break the cycle of how we manage our expectations and not allow ourselves to automatically revert to a constant pushing for results. Sometimes we need to go with the flow. This is who I was before and under the actions of those who switched me from free-flowing to overactive, I try to not do this to others and you should too. Be aware of how you respond and understand if you are blocked or overactive in your approach. Are you calm or frustrated, collected or about to lose the plot? Well, take a minute and step back from it and ask yourself “How am I responding?” tell yourself honestly the “why” and begin to deal with it. Life doesn’t happen on our watch, it happens as it does, it’s how we respond to it that really counts.

I hope you all enjoy your happy Saturday xx