awaken – Esoteric Realms

June 20, 2019

Thoughtful Thursday

Pictures speaks a thousand words or something like that. This speaks straight to my heart. I love Love, what can I say. The heart wants what the heart wants and if you’re like me it’s more than chocolate and flowers, it’s real. It’s a reality and emotion and force that leads your life that you can’t shake out from. Everything you do is to love. Except when we don’t get what we need in return we get frustrated, we know we are being shown what we give. It’s a pickle sometimes to navigate but we learn, eventually that not everyone has to receive what we have to give, not everyone is willing or actually deserving.

Two energies, two full life forces that can form one, the difference in them is a completion of the other. We’re different but we are the pieces that fit perfectly together, one is strong and the other nurtures, one might be clever and the other silly and one might be broken and the other a healer, to be able then to turn the tables and reverse the roles. You always complement each other which can annoy you but instead of fighting their yin to your yang, embrace their madness, sadness, brokenness and help lead and guide them on their journey to growth. This is your relationship, you don’t get the fruit for nothing, you both have to put the time and care into it and into each other to watch it grow, flourish, heal and then you can enjoy the fruits of both your labour.

You can’t deny that love really does make the world go around, but not the tv love, I’m describing only the real sacrificial, unconditional, will break you and cleanse you, love. The only love that matters. The one that brings you closer and connected to each other, you really do form one person. You are made whole in real love. You know yourself best when it comes to your experiences and expectations but when you find it, you know.

I hope you all know yourself enough to know you are worth more than “less than acceptable” behaviour and effort. Why settle for wet rag when you can ignite yourself with your twin flame. I have a tendency you could say, towards the importance of the prioritisation of people in your life over other materialistic things. More importantly the ones you love over other irrelevant people and things. Your car is not important, your job is not worth the one person who actually will be there if you’re dying, it’s only the ones who love us who will truly hold us as we travel through life’s journey.

If you don’t have each other, what do you really have?

June 20, 2019June 20, 2019

Todays Meditation

I had a lot on my heart and mind today (as usual) so I took time this morning to be very intentional on answers, healing and shed light by digging deeper into the why of it.

I have begun to feel like I am always being left empty handed in relationships, it’s a one way street and they are like a blackhole of emotion and resources. I keep pouring in and it all keeps disappearing and there is never any return. I really had to dig deeper to understand that I was not only giving to a endless void but also that wasn’t the part that hurt, it was the fact the I would give unconditionally and never once did I receive that in return.

As I closed my eyes and breathed deeply, I saw three things I want to share with you and I hope this helps others who may be struggling with this too. The first was a large great white shark, it was just in front of me, we were face to face. Sharks represent two things, your desire for productivity, the ability to keep moving and stay focused, but it also represents how we can be in relationship with someone or be the person who is greedy and scrupulous. For me this just made sense. I had faced many sharks in my life so far but this one was different because I heard a voice say become the shark. For the first time I felt I could take the power back after identifying the root issue in my relationships and how I thrive with productivity and a constant movement forward in my life. I thrive for progress.

The second image was an Anaconda, it was wrapped around a large tree trunk and was calm. Snakes in general represent a transformation, a shedding of skin. You are the centre of the changes but there is nothing to fear. The Anaconda specifically comes as a reminder that we cannot control everything, to let go of the outcome and allow things to unfold. For me this is was always are hard thing to do, but this has been a recurring message over the last few days. It’s time for me to stop being so overactive in my energy and allow change to occur and most importantly, not fear it.

The third was the colours I saw during this time was the correlation to how these issues were affecting me emotionally and physically. They were white and violet which are related to source energy flowing to intuition and purple which relates to our third eye which helps us see all perspectives and helps with intuition work. As someone whose strength is in intuition and knowing, this was a great sign as seeing colour during meditation is a sign of it healing and unblocking.

For many this means nothing, for me this means everything. I have a message, to understand the sharks in my life, to breakdown the root of an issue and know I can now transform the issue into a solution, I can embody the shark by keeping my progress continual. I know when I focus on an issue I begin to clear out any blockages by meditation and digging deeper. These three proactive ways increase our ability to change. We can change our circumstances, ourselves and heal all in one when we just take the time to sit, be still and allow ourselves to work through it and see it clearly.

Sometimes we avoid this so we don’t have to acknowledge or accept the pain we have or have inflicted in ourselves as well as needing to change. I think more than anything the fear of it holds us back and doing so holds us back in every way mentally , emotionally, physically and spiritually. So I encourage you, even if you don’t have any issues surrounding your thoughts and emotions at this time, still take the time out to just breathe, relax and unwind. You don’t need to receive anything, you can just let go and allow your body to recharge itself, which is more important than your phone!

June 18, 2019June 20, 2019

Evoke Emotion

I remember when I was little and anticipation for my birthday or Christmas struck. I could feel it so vividly, it would overcome me with electric vibration. I wouldn’t be able to sleep the night before because I knew just what the next day would bring, only great things. I felt this last night. I couldn’t understand why and then I woke with the same excitement and anticipation. I realised, it was my son’s birthday and this was his energy. The more I meditate and connect to who I am the more I learn about how deeply I am really connected to those around me, I can feel their energy. It brought a humbling reminder to me that we get so lost in our own adult lives that any sort of joy or excitement gets swallowed whole by work, family, friends. It’s like we can’t even enjoy those things anymore, they’re either routine or a struggle to really relax into.

It’s harder when you have children because you are unable to live your life as you once pleased. You must readjust and most of the time my life is now spent revolving around others, their needs and time frames and not my own. I don’t get to make time for me to indulge a catch up with a friend, no plans are set to look forward to, no break awaits and no sicks days exist. I am completely absorbed in my daily struggle to survive. This experience has taught me an important reminder as not only how important it is to not forget to take an intentional time to enjoy life but why it is important. We forget who we are and why we exist. We don’t enjoy any part of it and what existence would be worthwhile if all we do is sacrifice and suffer. Now a lot of other people are able to receive the helping hand they need and take some much need me-time and couple-time but we don’t and thankfully we try to work in our early morning quiet times and evening rest times once the children are asleep.

It was sad to think that all this time I had forgotten the excitement that should be felt in our lives, that we are worth celebrating and life is worth celebrating and we should feel that so deeply, but we don’t. We are swallowed by work deadlines, stresses and trying relationships. The trifecta that destroys us because while we are trying to feel something we’re filling the hollow in ourselves with things that invoke no sense of activation to us. We’re still remaining empty and lifeless. I really hope you get a chance to remember and hold on to that joy and excitement you once had, that you never let it go. We should always feel like so vividly and project our emotions so clearly that we can use it as a guide. Our emotions are our instincts when we are happy we are in a positive place if we’re sad we’re in a negative one, but we seem to ignore it and keep going when we should just let it be.

I really hope this encourages you to take some time and remember how it feels to experience life through the eyes of your inner child and maybe your life will begin to blossom once again. I am really thankful for my beautiful children and the inner child reminding me to stop and feel, to really begin to understand others and myself through emotions. Emotions are a powerful guide that we can trust if we really listen to what they are telling us.

June 15, 2019June 18, 2019

Hit REFRESH

I hope you all take some time to hit the refresh button this lovely Sunday and just relax. I find it very hard to do this as there is always something to do, but I’ve had to start making the time.

How many times do we push ourselves to the brink of exhaustion, everything we do is under pressure and we rush and hurry. As a mother this is bound to happen, trying to get a toddler and baby ready then somehow myself. Everyone depends on me to do things for them and others call on me because I’m dependable and always happy to help but in amongst this I forget me. I forget how important I am and I forget how to relax and unwind, mostly because I feel like I can’t or shouldn’t or don’t have the option to. Sound familiar?

This is where I had to acknowledge my pattern of behaviour and how negatively it was affecting me. I had to learn to let go of the rush and time press and just let things sit for a minute because making time to do things is as almost as important as being able to relax and re-centre yourself. Leave all the weight at the door and enter your own sanctuary where you can find peace to carry throughout your day. I try to be very intentional with my mornings and start my day off with #futureselfjournaling and just let the dishes be, they’re always going to exist.

What seems to be lacking is my ability to unwind for a minute and finding my focus for the day. Without, I realised how unsettled I am.

I encourage you, just take a minute with a cup of something and sit outside, turn your room into a cove of peace or even in the shower and most importantly leave the phone behind. Just breathe, focus on something your day seems to revolve around and begin to speak life into it, see it in your mind how well will go and how successful it will be. If things go another way not planned to your expectations, learn to be thankful for it and learn to accept the things we have no control over, learn to see it as a necessary outcome as much as things must happen so they mustn’t. We seem to be angered at the thought that something we have revolved out thought and emotion around and invested doesn’t come to fruition, we built ourselves up for frustration instead of seeing with new eyes and allowing things to take us down a different path and to see it is good too.

Ready yourself for a day with a focus and hopefully, you’ll be able to feel the calm wash over you. You’ll find your centre and be ready to approach this day with new thoughts and fresh emotions. As a parent, I try to do this when both my children are happy and occupied or asleep. It doesn’t take long and just sets us all up for a great if not, wonderful day.

As a parent this is apart of my change into conscious parenting. It will make a difference as a worker, as a parent, child, every individual. This is NOT just sitting and doing nothing, you are purposefully breaking a habit and creating a new one where you a letting go of the negative thoughts and feelings and deciding to take on new positive ones instead. You are aligning yourself to a new way of living and being. You are choosing to be better, calming, more conscious of yourself and of others.

I hope you enjoy your day and try a new mindset, wear calm and feel the strength from your new set day.